We worked on footwork in Tai Chi this morning--with fancy chinese names. i did my best and it made sense mostly, but when he comes by to check i have the feeling that i actually have no idea what i'm doing. keep coming back to: i need to just keep showing up, and it will make sense eventually. but its also frustrating being the new kid on the block.
i stopped at my garden plot on the way home--someone had a brought a fresh load of horse manure, so now all my veggies are mulched in and top-dressed and weeded. there's already a tiny tomato fruit on one of the plants. the kale is coming along, and the beans are starting to vine up the fence.
came home for wedding rehearsal this afternoon with JD and bryan, all those classic favorites--pachelbel's canon, here comes the bride, etc. I'm glad to be learning them and man! it is tricky trying to sound like a classical musician again! i've some imprecise habits, especially around intonation.
Someone posted this awesome Ann Lamot piece on FB, much of it struck me but of particular note of late, this bit:
kept thinking throughout the day how much i compare my insides to other people's outsides. and some people's outsides are pretty damned good looking.
gave a massage at the beautiful office today for the first time in awhile--i think i did a better job of staying in communication throughout so as to give the client what they were wanting....oof its such a process and i am not putting enough time/energy into that area of my life....i guess because i'm still intimidated. powerhouse zumba 1/2 hour on the way home.
We had a very awesome blackfire rehearsal tonight. i'm starting to feel heartbroken about breaking up another freakin awesome band. wondering about my decision. we sound so so good. we worked out a tight, hard rockin arrangement for rustemul--zach and jd are so good at coming up with creative arrangement ideas for beginnings and endings, and that tune just rocks so hard anyway. worked on loli phabay as well, an awesome arrangement and i got to sing it a bunch w/the mic, which is good practice. i just love how that song feels in my mouth--it just fits into my body so comfortably. late night but last night i slept so much and was still tired so i guess i'm going in the other direction tonight.
i stopped at my garden plot on the way home--someone had a brought a fresh load of horse manure, so now all my veggies are mulched in and top-dressed and weeded. there's already a tiny tomato fruit on one of the plants. the kale is coming along, and the beans are starting to vine up the fence.
came home for wedding rehearsal this afternoon with JD and bryan, all those classic favorites--pachelbel's canon, here comes the bride, etc. I'm glad to be learning them and man! it is tricky trying to sound like a classical musician again! i've some imprecise habits, especially around intonation.
Someone posted this awesome Ann Lamot piece on FB, much of it struck me but of particular note of late, this bit:
Everyone is screwed up, broken, clingy, and scared, even the people who seem to have it more or less together. They are much more like you than you would believe. So try not to compare your insides to their outsides. Also, you can't save, fix or rescue any of them, or get any of them sober. But radical self-care is quantum, and radiates out into the atmosphere, like a little fresh air. It is a huge gift to the world. When people respond by saying, "Well, isn't she full of herself," smile obliquely, like Mona Lisa, and make both of you a nice cup of tea.
kept thinking throughout the day how much i compare my insides to other people's outsides. and some people's outsides are pretty damned good looking.
gave a massage at the beautiful office today for the first time in awhile--i think i did a better job of staying in communication throughout so as to give the client what they were wanting....oof its such a process and i am not putting enough time/energy into that area of my life....i guess because i'm still intimidated. powerhouse zumba 1/2 hour on the way home.
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We had a very awesome blackfire rehearsal tonight. i'm starting to feel heartbroken about breaking up another freakin awesome band. wondering about my decision. we sound so so good. we worked out a tight, hard rockin arrangement for rustemul--zach and jd are so good at coming up with creative arrangement ideas for beginnings and endings, and that tune just rocks so hard anyway. worked on loli phabay as well, an awesome arrangement and i got to sing it a bunch w/the mic, which is good practice. i just love how that song feels in my mouth--it just fits into my body so comfortably. late night but last night i slept so much and was still tired so i guess i'm going in the other direction tonight.
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