Tuesday morning we drove to
--When I’m done traveling and exploring, I want to move to a medium sized city on the west coast, live in a coop house and go to massage school.
--I want to keep being involved with Sky in a big way
Some of the deeper physical/emotional work that happened was around my relationship to my sexuality, which has been a point of growth and struggle for many years. This time it was around the ways that I still rely on my sexuality, (namely being attractive to men and sleeping with them) as a self-esteem booster. I began realizing that this manifests itself in a lot of the small and subtle in which I interact with men, even those I’m just meeting casually for the first time. I came away with some resolve to shift this, and work towards interacting with all people from a stronger and more independent, self-loving place.
So much intense emotional work, of course I was totally antsy to talk and reconnect with Sky after those 10 days! We finally got to see each other on the 10th day, though we were still prohibited from touching. It was very intense, we were both quite giddy and nervous after all that time quieting our energy. Of course, we ended up having the Big Relationship Processing conversation right away (I couldn’t wait a moment longer), but it was pretty quick and painless. Sky has been very interested in moving to the West Coast, as well, and we also about what it meant to be more committed primary partners. It felt so good to be with him and talk with him after 10 days of one sided conversations in my head.
more to come soon...........!