then, back to the house w/courtney, getting dressed trying to eat putting flowers in my hair grabbing salad stuffs and fiddle stuffs and OUT goofy in the car w/loud dance music and as we hit that last stretch before school that feeling descends
wind and blue sky and loud music and perfect company and flowers and chaos and LIFE
arriving back, families gathering....
it begins. we do our skit and it comes off PERFECT i'm watching maura's face the whole time and her laugh and eyebrows MAKE it. back to the front row on courntey's lap for more words, introducing selena unprepared nailing it. speaking my own words of gratitude NAILED IT. new class comes up en masse this whole freakin crew of sweet beautiful folks surrounding us. certificates handed out, roses, hug line and nearly every teacher saying something awesome about me being a ham, or an amazing public speaker. making sure they know i'm not gone! flowers from the new class, miiillling about, flowers in hand still barefoot
then a long, sweet, romantic walk w/E through the duck pond, floating in barefeet and white dress under the moonlight surrounded by frogs and night. broke his heart as gently as possible. sat on the wall over the water, by the fountain, teetering on the walls bumping tiny bits at moments. home late
then drunken (her not me) online chatting w/courtney, more good convos w/ali, telling the whole ridiculous saga to gpaul and finally COLLAPSING in utter exhaustion
a massage therapist with sweet friends and a bright, wide open future