A No Plan Morning....eek!!! I did my best to surrender to the mind-numbing rhythm after a flurry of desperate, last minute texts to moms and neighbors yielded no fruit. It helps knowing that busier and more scheduled days are just around the corner: grandparents visiting, playdates--just starting to be a Thing again--soccer, music class). Such days nearly did me in mid-pandemic, when the delightful spaciousness of Everything Cancelled wore off but before the Alternative, Pandemic Approved plans kicked in.
Sweet moments that don't happen on those scheduled days are the perk of weathering the stultifying feelings of boredom. As I stared out the window, Isabel looked at me and said "Mama, what are you doing?" Then answered her own question, "You're taking care of us".
Exactly.
The morning included: showering (a major trust exercise!/Please don't report me to CPS), and coming out to find the 2 of them playing quietly together on the Living Room floor (whose kids are these??), pumping up the inflatable moose from Aunt Debbie (everyone took a turn), and a 3-block-parade to visit with a neighbor consisting of: massage table-on-a-wagon, Isabel on a strider, Leo pushing a plastic grocery cart.
Then lunch, nursing a very sleepy/sleeping Leo while microwaving Isabel's chicken nuggets. I'm not quite the mom I thought I'd be, instead I'm so much more.
1 comment:
Kassia, there is so much love piercing my fortress of hopeless solitude from reading this one post.
You are out there, living, parading with multiple children and massage tables.
Your daughter sees that caring for people and ourselves is doing something, something valuable.
You see yourself and find value beyond your imaginings.
You have something blowup in your life.
You can take showers.
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