ups and downs on the farm

i got back to twin oaks Sunday night--so far its been great and hard and confusing and satisfying. these transition points really hard the roughest part of the transient
lifestyle. the hardest part has been continuously re-negotiating my relationship with sky. sunday
marked a year of being involved, which is pretty amazing for me. generally i'm pretty relationship-phobic. i really love our relationship--we have such an ease and comfort with each other. he's also great about challenging me while taking responsibility for his own shit. its definately the most exciting and fulfilling relationship i've ever had. all of my coming and going and future uncertainty has put a lot of stress on him and the relationship, and my wild-oat sowing doesn't help either. (not that he hasn't sown a few of his own while i've been gone)

last night apple and ali, to awesome women friends and i went out to visit our buddy kate (check out her blog at trespass.motime.com). she left twin oaks last year, and pretty quickly stepped into a radically different life--in a (relatively) monogomous, committed relationship with a man who has 3 kids from previous
relationships, going to grad school fully time for sociology, and living a somewhat mainstream life.

it felt so good to be with these awesome women and just talk and laugh and be silly and snuggly and supportive. its such an enigma to me that our lives have taken us to such different places
when we so clearly should all be living together somewhere.