of late i have been waking up at 5 am, or 5 30, just ready to be alive and awake. more living that i want to do. mom just told me that her and dana are splitting up--its been...gosh probably 10 years! i got the sense that it was his choice. its shocking but also relieving. i'm happy to be able to go home now--because that's it in part, why i never go back there. that's not my home. but mom is home. and downtown houghton is def home. she has so much support, and is trained in dealing with this sort of stuff still....OUCH.
so yesterday. one of those days that makes me not want to blog because everything's so damned ridiculously blessed feeling. busking at the haile farmer's market--getting paid to sit around in the street and play easy fun irish and old time music. one lady vender gave us some absurdly delicious cookies, another, chocolate. people stopped by to chat and take our card. got a huge load of veggies after, and a bit of cash. dappled sun filtering through the trees and clouds, perfect temperature, people-and-dog watching, jammin' w/katrina. then an efficient stop at home and on to the vets for peace gig w/jd. playing there i mean really, just sharing. then back. electricity.
can still feel rough thumb dragged across my lower lip lighting up my whole body. and immediately after my own innards shifting into release and then a new questioning, movement, caution, backtrack.
girls rock camp training--i'm getting so excited!!! such an awesome group of amazing women, and such an awesome opportunity! loving and appreciating...and perhaps most important, starting to deepen my understanding of my housemates. such an intense way to get to know people, such a gift really. to get to see all the gnarly bits--nobody sees that stuff.
and still stepping forward bit by bit, moving into this new career thing with nervousness and excitement.
and today, the beach.
sometimes the universe gives me what i want before i'm even quite sure what to ask for. loving everything with bursting heart and spine tingles.
so yesterday. one of those days that makes me not want to blog because everything's so damned ridiculously blessed feeling. busking at the haile farmer's market--getting paid to sit around in the street and play easy fun irish and old time music. one lady vender gave us some absurdly delicious cookies, another, chocolate. people stopped by to chat and take our card. got a huge load of veggies after, and a bit of cash. dappled sun filtering through the trees and clouds, perfect temperature, people-and-dog watching, jammin' w/katrina. then an efficient stop at home and on to the vets for peace gig w/jd. playing there i mean really, just sharing. then back. electricity.
can still feel rough thumb dragged across my lower lip lighting up my whole body. and immediately after my own innards shifting into release and then a new questioning, movement, caution, backtrack.
girls rock camp training--i'm getting so excited!!! such an awesome group of amazing women, and such an awesome opportunity! loving and appreciating...and perhaps most important, starting to deepen my understanding of my housemates. such an intense way to get to know people, such a gift really. to get to see all the gnarly bits--nobody sees that stuff.
and still stepping forward bit by bit, moving into this new career thing with nervousness and excitement.
and today, the beach.
sometimes the universe gives me what i want before i'm even quite sure what to ask for. loving everything with bursting heart and spine tingles.
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