Monday, October 18, 2010

getting the love

recently in a co-counseling session, my fearless counselor pointed out that i am surrounded by love, despite my insistence that i am utterly unlovable. there was a moment where it as so clear to me--that though i fight it every step of the way, there are so many wonderful people around me, loving me up. in the past few days, i've had moments of just letting that soak in, despite all my internal resistance and protestations. its powerful and magical, and feels so good. we all deserve that, we all have it. its just a matter of getting the yucky stuff out of the way, those old messages that we learned in a moment of childhood survival. here's to getting there quickly and gracefully.

2 comments:

memeticist said...

Glad you are getting the msgs. What happens if you start looking forward believing, rather than looking back doubting ?

deebee said...

Beautifully said...now I need to let myself feel it too....ahhhhh, all those childhood moment. xoxo