longing to root

i just got off the phone with a soul sister (and brand new mama) back in virginia. it was a relief to share some of my creeping doubts and insecurities and hear them reflected back and refracted through her lens. being in a new place and community, its hard to find outlets for this stuff and it just FESTERS and gets all scary and grnarly inside my brain. my biggest doubt/confusion right now is the seeming potential conflict between my life desires and sky's.

i feel ready to root, dig down deep and plant my feet. build community around me, shake things up, foment revolution; YES, absolutely. but i want that to come out of a deep sense of home and rooted connection. sky's energy is explosive right now--enough to set off a dozen revolutions. i don't want to hold him back from that, i want to fully support and participate in that...and there's this seed of doubt, that right now in our lives we are seeking fundamentally different things.

i recently read a quote from Abraham-Hicks, something to the effect of: stop asking other people what you ought to do--give them a break for once. go inside, get quiet, the answers are there waiting for you.